Saturday, August 11, 2012

Note To Self


I re-live yesterday

I watch you slip away.
The pain is still here,

It never disappeared.
Hot like a volcano

Both of us so volatile
We danced around the truth

Until the lies set us free.
Free from destiny

From what we could be
The distance between us

Has grown too much
There’s no going back

To what we had
To what we could be

Living separate lives
Our past has been archived

In the library of love
Another book on the shelf

As another note to self
Hardened by the tears

They soften through the years

The past is the past
There’s no going back

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Never Fall

waiting for the bottom to drop
feeling the heart stop
dead in my chest
hope for the best
you started out playing me
but i caught on and played too, see
lies encircle lies
like vultures fly

around their prey
nothing more to say


I'm done with the game
I want to be whole again
(pure like when)
i felt love unconditional
and felt the same irrational
feelings that made us
do crazy things in lust

or was it love?
was it ever really love.......
was it the chase
that made me a head case?


The feelings dissapate
I start to relate
I found distraction
another attraction
to keep my attention
towards another direction
(away from you)
Always someome else
to fill in the holes
keep me on my toes
share the highs and lows

replace you in my head
to kiss me as i go to bed
the safety and security
i feel are my surety
to a life of happiness
no more gambling on blackjacks
I'm the Queen in his Heart
in this new start
this house will not fall
never will we fall



Sunday, February 19, 2012

THE LAST TIME

Promises made and never kept.
Inside I harden with every disappointment.
The distance that grows between us,
Makes it that much easier to shake my head at trust.

We part ways, by my own choice.
It’s not a disgrace, I needed my own space.
The ‘I’m sorrys’ that you say, never matter anyway.
Just meaningless words you utter to make me stay.

CHORUS:
This time is the last time.  The last time I let you keep me.
The last time I make me believe your plea.
The last time.

Walking away was so much easier than I thought it could ever be.
The closure is what is eating away at me.
You consume my thoughts; you’re in my every waking moment,
And haunting my dreams in the dark.

No matter my opposition, you’re still in position.
At the forefront of my brain, driving me insane.
This isn’t what I expected to happen.
I’m still trapped in.
 
CHORUS:
This time is the last time.  The last time I let me keep me.
The last time I think of you thinking of me.
The last time.
 
BRIDGE:
Remind myself of your twisted tongue, the lies.
The nights you didn’t come home,
The times you didn’t answer your phone.

CHORUS:
This time is the last time.  The last time I let me keep me.
The last time I think of you thinking of me.
The last time,

The last time,

The last time,

The last time,

The last time,

The last time,

The last time,

The last time.