I’m stumbling thru the dark,
Reaching out though nothing is there
The constant fear I cant reach you.
Blindly hoping for a sign
But all I feel are the thoughts
Of touching you.
I’m looking for something
That I’m not sure is there to be found
I want so much to hold you
And have you hold me too.
But you’re not there.
I’m stumbling thru the dark,
Reaching out though nothing is there
The constant hope I will find you lingers in the air.
The further the distance, hope turns to loneliness
That turns to desperation.
I’m looking for something
That I’m not sure is there to be found
I want so much to hold you
And have you hold me too.
But you’re not there.
You never were.
Trying to reason with myself
But the open space is so vast
I cant make heads or tails, I’m so lost
Reaching out into the emptiness
One last time, hoping its my last
Hoping to find you here
Next to me.
I’m looking for something
That I’m not sure is there to be found
I want so much to hold you
And have you hold me too.
But you’re not there.
You never were.
You never will be.
Never will be……
Never will be……
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Saturday, April 30, 2011
RSVP
You show me your soul, I try to see the things you do, but I can’t quite get to where you are. Time can bring me up to speed, but you’ll still be ahead of me.
Falling behind, I feel so blind to your pain. Always three steps back, I try to run to catch up, but it’s been a battle. I’m running up hill towards the stars you’ve seen in your lifetime, but I can’t quite ever reach them.
I want to be where you are
Feeling the same things you’ve felt
Seeing the things that made you scared
Let me feel what you feel when you feel how you feel.
How do you feel?
Chasing your love around, hunting you down. Shining my light in your face, but I can’t get to that place in your heart. There seems to be no room for me.
My lonely heart wants to be a part of an us. I pray one day you’ll be in the same place with me in your sights. Wanting to love me as I try to love you.
I want you to be where I am
Feeling the same things I feel
Seeing the things that make me scared
I want there to be an us. Can we make an us?
I know we can get over your past. Please hear my plea, when will you let down your guard and just let me in. Just let me love you.
Love is simple. Love is blind. Open your heart and open your eyes. Maybe you’ll feel me. Maybe you’ll see me, when you’re ready.
Stay with me tonight and let’s rewrite our story.
Falling behind, I feel so blind to your pain. Always three steps back, I try to run to catch up, but it’s been a battle. I’m running up hill towards the stars you’ve seen in your lifetime, but I can’t quite ever reach them.
I want to be where you are
Feeling the same things you’ve felt
Seeing the things that made you scared
Let me feel what you feel when you feel how you feel.
How do you feel?
Chasing your love around, hunting you down. Shining my light in your face, but I can’t get to that place in your heart. There seems to be no room for me.
My lonely heart wants to be a part of an us. I pray one day you’ll be in the same place with me in your sights. Wanting to love me as I try to love you.
I want you to be where I am
Feeling the same things I feel
Seeing the things that make me scared
I want there to be an us. Can we make an us?
I know we can get over your past. Please hear my plea, when will you let down your guard and just let me in. Just let me love you.
Love is simple. Love is blind. Open your heart and open your eyes. Maybe you’ll feel me. Maybe you’ll see me, when you’re ready.
Stay with me tonight and let’s rewrite our story.
Monday, April 11, 2011
“We all break the same”
This Sunday will mark the one year of 'letting someone down'. Someone I admired and hell, even adored for, well, let’s just say a very long time. Why can’t I get over it?
Maybe the harsh way things were left is what eats away at me, almost, daily. Maybe I miss the interesting thoughts and poignant conversations. The points of view helping me guide my own theories along the way, as they have for the years previous, just in a different light. Maybe I think of all the different possibilities that could have been; working towards a common goal.
Telling me I ‘just don’t understand’ for how things spiraled out of hand and then walking away, isn’t an answer. I think of what the answer could be; and the answer changes every time I think about the situation. The final result is that there was never an answer. All I can surmise is that it was just an excuse to be done with the whole situation; so was it my fault in the first place? I guess I will never know. And that too sticks with me every damn day. The failure of it all is just something that doesn’t settle well with me. Don’t think that I’m not mad at myself for what happened. But without an answer, how I can never move on to fix what was broken.
After so many people hurt or screw you over, I can see why 2nd chances are not an option for 1st offenders. Just move on to the next in line, I’m sure there are plenty to choose from. Whether they are better choices, or not, I suppose that will be remain to be seen. It was never my intention to screw anyone over, and I understand how people can disappoint. I know I must have done so, yet, I too was disappointed.
In short, this is my apology to those involved. I expect no sympathy, nor a response, not that anyone involved will even read this or know it exists. But I still will hope/pray for peace and goodwill for them. This is something that I’ve needed to get off my chest. Whether I blame myself or not, isn’t what I’m after here. I’m just here to say ‘sorry’ and that I truly meant it the 1st time I said it.
Maybe the harsh way things were left is what eats away at me, almost, daily. Maybe I miss the interesting thoughts and poignant conversations. The points of view helping me guide my own theories along the way, as they have for the years previous, just in a different light. Maybe I think of all the different possibilities that could have been; working towards a common goal.
Telling me I ‘just don’t understand’ for how things spiraled out of hand and then walking away, isn’t an answer. I think of what the answer could be; and the answer changes every time I think about the situation. The final result is that there was never an answer. All I can surmise is that it was just an excuse to be done with the whole situation; so was it my fault in the first place? I guess I will never know. And that too sticks with me every damn day. The failure of it all is just something that doesn’t settle well with me. Don’t think that I’m not mad at myself for what happened. But without an answer, how I can never move on to fix what was broken.
After so many people hurt or screw you over, I can see why 2nd chances are not an option for 1st offenders. Just move on to the next in line, I’m sure there are plenty to choose from. Whether they are better choices, or not, I suppose that will be remain to be seen. It was never my intention to screw anyone over, and I understand how people can disappoint. I know I must have done so, yet, I too was disappointed.
In short, this is my apology to those involved. I expect no sympathy, nor a response, not that anyone involved will even read this or know it exists. But I still will hope/pray for peace and goodwill for them. This is something that I’ve needed to get off my chest. Whether I blame myself or not, isn’t what I’m after here. I’m just here to say ‘sorry’ and that I truly meant it the 1st time I said it.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
To Nowhere
I can’t trust that you trust me
The secondhand info you have
Turns into third hand knowledge
That isn’t quite the right story.
How could I be so blind, let you lead me on
You hide behind your mask
And I don’t tell don’t ask
Why do I let this go on, why do you lead me on?
Watching every move I make
Hearing every step I take
You know my plan before I do
You know just what you do
To me
Take me far away from here
Move me over there
I Lift me up, you shoot me down
I am always on the ground.
Always on the ground.
Running a losing race.
You’re living in another time and space
And I am running a losing race.
All I want is a getaway
But I’m running a losing race.
I’m always on the path….
TO NOWHERE.
Just when I think it’s alright,
It’s never alright.
Just when I think it’s over
It’s never over.
Won’t you stand in my shoes
See the war wounds
If you could look in me straight in the eyes
You’d see all the lies I've been told
Running a losing race.
You’re living in another time and space
And I am running a losing race.
All I want is a getaway
But I’m running a losing race.
I’m always on the path….
TO NOWHERE.
The secondhand info you have
Turns into third hand knowledge
That isn’t quite the right story.
How could I be so blind, let you lead me on
You hide behind your mask
And I don’t tell don’t ask
Why do I let this go on, why do you lead me on?
Watching every move I make
Hearing every step I take
You know my plan before I do
You know just what you do
To me
Take me far away from here
Move me over there
I Lift me up, you shoot me down
I am always on the ground.
Always on the ground.
Running a losing race.
You’re living in another time and space
And I am running a losing race.
All I want is a getaway
But I’m running a losing race.
I’m always on the path….
TO NOWHERE.
Just when I think it’s alright,
It’s never alright.
Just when I think it’s over
It’s never over.
Won’t you stand in my shoes
See the war wounds
If you could look in me straight in the eyes
You’d see all the lies I've been told
Running a losing race.
You’re living in another time and space
And I am running a losing race.
All I want is a getaway
But I’m running a losing race.
I’m always on the path….
TO NOWHERE.
Saturday, September 11, 2010
LOVE FOR GRANTED
I Walked away from you. Why do I question my decision.
Twisted tongue, you were always confusing. Tried to keep me guessing.
I had to get away.
Regretting what could have been. Remembering what was.
Trying to let time pass to erase our time from my mind.
I can’t get far enough away.
You took my love,
You took my love for granted.
You were all I ever wanted.
But you couldn’t love me back.
Why do you shut out those that have love to give you.
Those that want to be with you.
Those that care about you.
Your lies no longer can blind me from the truth. I can see the light.
I held back on loving you. I would have given you my all.
But you pushed me away,
Like so many before me.
You took my love,
You took my love for granted.
You were all I ever wanted.
But you couldn’t love me back.
I was standing still, reflecting upon the past
Now I’m moving forward, watching the future happen
All I can do is think about you, wishing you were here
To see what we could be.
But we can’t, cuz you won’t.
That’s ok, baby.
The hope is gone. I have finally moved on.
And I am alright…..
Ya I am alright….
Tonight.
Twisted tongue, you were always confusing. Tried to keep me guessing.
I had to get away.
Regretting what could have been. Remembering what was.
Trying to let time pass to erase our time from my mind.
I can’t get far enough away.
You took my love,
You took my love for granted.
You were all I ever wanted.
But you couldn’t love me back.
Why do you shut out those that have love to give you.
Those that want to be with you.
Those that care about you.
Your lies no longer can blind me from the truth. I can see the light.
I held back on loving you. I would have given you my all.
But you pushed me away,
Like so many before me.
You took my love,
You took my love for granted.
You were all I ever wanted.
But you couldn’t love me back.
I was standing still, reflecting upon the past
Now I’m moving forward, watching the future happen
All I can do is think about you, wishing you were here
To see what we could be.
But we can’t, cuz you won’t.
That’s ok, baby.
The hope is gone. I have finally moved on.
And I am alright…..
Ya I am alright….
Tonight.
Monday, August 2, 2010
HEADACHE
I don’t want to be that person in the mirror looking back at me.
I can see you stare right thru me, you think you know me so well
You don’t you can’t see what’s inside my head
You can’t feel what’s behind these eyes
This heart it breaks for you seeing you hurt this way
But I know you can’t stop what you do
I try to be your guide, but you just won’t listen
When will you hear the sound of my voice.
Think through what you do.
Don’t fall into this trap,
Just keep telling yourself you’re better than that.
My voice is muted by your anger.
I feel so trapped inside this head of mine
Your actions lead to distraction
And your pain is not felt by the ones you intend
I cant trust the thoughts inside your mind.
You push and pull and think you can control.
You lose when you give in to this abuse
Just hold on tight soon this fight will end
Time will somehow erase those memories
And leave you whole again, rather than let
You live with this hole in your heart.
One day you can look in the mirror and
Love yourself, love life again.
I can see you stare right thru me, you think you know me so well
You don’t you can’t see what’s inside my head
You can’t feel what’s behind these eyes
This heart it breaks for you seeing you hurt this way
But I know you can’t stop what you do
I try to be your guide, but you just won’t listen
When will you hear the sound of my voice.
Think through what you do.
Don’t fall into this trap,
Just keep telling yourself you’re better than that.
My voice is muted by your anger.
I feel so trapped inside this head of mine
Your actions lead to distraction
And your pain is not felt by the ones you intend
I cant trust the thoughts inside your mind.
You push and pull and think you can control.
You lose when you give in to this abuse
Just hold on tight soon this fight will end
Time will somehow erase those memories
And leave you whole again, rather than let
You live with this hole in your heart.
One day you can look in the mirror and
Love yourself, love life again.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Believe In Me
You got me all tongue tied, thoughts twisted
I can’t say what I need to say, when you are near
Knees are weak, heart skips a beat
I can’t say what I want to say, when you are here.
Chorus:
All I ever wanted I found in you.
All I ever needed I see in you.
Keep me close though I can’t speak
the words I have to say
You just have to believe.
Don’t move from me, just give me time.
I want you to know that you are mine.
I want to share with you my hopes and dreams
Please, this is not as it seems.
Chorus:
All I ever wanted I found in you.
All I ever needed I see in you.
Keep me close though I can’t speak
the words I have to say
You just have to believe.
I try so hard to say the words
You need to hear
My head won’t speak what my
Heart wants to say
I don’t know why I am torn
Or why I feel this way
Chorus:
All I ever wanted I found in you.
All I ever needed I see in you.
Keep me close though I can’t speak
the words I have to say
You just have to believe.
Baby, please believe in me.
I can’t say what I need to say, when you are near
Knees are weak, heart skips a beat
I can’t say what I want to say, when you are here.
Chorus:
All I ever wanted I found in you.
All I ever needed I see in you.
Keep me close though I can’t speak
the words I have to say
You just have to believe.
Don’t move from me, just give me time.
I want you to know that you are mine.
I want to share with you my hopes and dreams
Please, this is not as it seems.
Chorus:
All I ever wanted I found in you.
All I ever needed I see in you.
Keep me close though I can’t speak
the words I have to say
You just have to believe.
I try so hard to say the words
You need to hear
My head won’t speak what my
Heart wants to say
I don’t know why I am torn
Or why I feel this way
Chorus:
All I ever wanted I found in you.
All I ever needed I see in you.
Keep me close though I can’t speak
the words I have to say
You just have to believe.
Baby, please believe in me.
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