I struggle with my feelings
letting go
clinging on
trying to just move on
but i just keep on
reliving the time
we spent
the nights up late
the talks
the memories
the fights
the highlights
the laughs
the times i cried
the times you lied
I didnt mean to run
I got in too deep
I'm sorry I freaked
out in the night
waiting for the light
on my phone to shine
hoping it would be you
this time
without you i'm lost
wondering alone amongst the dust
it chokes me up
i can barely breathe
from the dry dirt
would it be too much to
beg for forgivness
or
ask you to change
your mind?
I shouldnt have reacted
and shut you out
that's just who i am
out of sight
out of mind
but this time
it hurts more than
I could have
ever imagined.
call me what you will
I deserve it
go ahead
give it to me good
feeling like a failure
heart bleeding like ink soaking in on paper
all over the airwaves
pushed to the edge
to the point of no return
will we learn from the wrongs
we have done along
fighting off the feelings
that lead me back to you
looking for distractions
facing the fear of being alone
recalling that last look in your eyes
the last words that fell from your mouth
that's enough to remind me
of why i'm here.
I have so much I want to say
to you just to get even
but I've got to move on
leave you to your self defeat
leave you to your own retreat
do you see me walking away
I'm walking away.
